Anonymous Addict…

21 DAYS

21 days, they say
it takes to tame a mind’s
new habit.  find a hobby, read
a book, start a journey and then…

but in travel guides I find but
nought but only rocks that trip
me up. and

in the words of songs, i find lines
of books and thoughts and dreams.
there lingers still the thoughts of her…

BACKGROUND: I have this habit of giving up possessions for obsessions (I seem to be living my life in a Papa Roach song, “between angels and insects”). Those obsessions have maybe, on occasion, been over a woman.

Or two.

At one time in my life, what I would sometimes consider the greatest love I had ever had, was also the most destructive. The longer we were taking to break the bond between us, the closer we were getting to destroying everything around us. The relationship had already cost both of us very dearly but what we had between us is still a mystery. I just couldn’t tear myself away.

I eventually had to view the relationship as an addiction and tackled it as I would have tackled an addiction… I kept a diary and marked off every day I managed to get through without contacting her. A habit is supposed to take 21 days to get out of and 21 days didn’t seem so long. I knew that if I could get to 21 days without talking to her, I would be okay.

21 days is VERY long.

~ by Norm on July 11, 2010.