Any Given Sunday…
Is it just me?
Or are there days like this for everyone?
Where my sons seems a lot more out of reach then they are
and I wish I had a reason to call them and hear their voices
Again
Or could convince myself I didn’t need to
Have a reason or need to hear their voices
Where I want to reach out and have some kind of human contact
With the divorced FaceBook friend who just posted pics of her children
And I want to tell her about how gorgeous their eyes are
And why that means so much to me
But I can’t because it’s a little weird. Maybe
Maybe not
Where not having heard from someone an entire weekend
hurts just a little. But way more than it should
Because she has touched me deeply and it’s stupid
Because it’s one-sided and besides
I’m useless at the whole beyond-friendship thing
And wondering all the time why that is
Where I keep on looking at my phone
to see if someone has sent me a message
Anyone. Really. Just a hello or silly little chirp
Something to make me believe they were thinking of me
For just a brief little time
Is it just me?
Or is it just a Sunday?
